Whew!! Ok so last week was a little rough. I’ve been stressed out and not taking my meds regularly which has had my compulsive eating on a hair trigger. I did give in once or twice. Once was really bad….I had McDonalds. While I wanted a full on value meal complete with a double quarter pounder that I knew would make me nauseous halfway through, I only had spare change on me and ended up just having a plain Mcdouble and a small fry. Not good, not horrible. It wouldn’t have been too bad at all….if I hadn’t failed to PT for THREE DAYS. I think it might actually have been four, but definitely three that I can remember. That said, I climbed the Double Tree stairs twice on Sunday. That’s up from the one time I did it last weekend. I also did 100 jumping jacks and some modified pushups on the landing’s railing.
I titled this blog Regrets because I only lost one pound. And I don’t even think it was a whole pound. I know for a fact if I got my shit together and worked out every day like I should be, I could have lost 2 whole pounds. All I can do though is do better this week. If I could only work out in the mornings….I HATE working out when I get home from work. What I hate more is working out indoors to a workout DVD tripping all over the place when my sneakers catch on the carpet and struggling to get my fat ass up and down off the floor. I love Jillian, but considering she’s used to working with huge fatties, you’d think she’d be a little more sympathetic to how long it takes us to get up and down off the floor. Just sayin. What I’d love to be doing is running. I long to run 😦 But I cannot take the weight of myself jumping around for more than 30 seconds, if that. My poor knees just can’t take it. I just want this weight OFF so I can get back to running!!! So working out will be, not easier, but less complicated! Josh had a good point, the thing holding me back isn’t my physical ability, it’s my respiratory ability. That I need to focus on my breathing. Which is fine, and I COMPLETELY agree…it’s just hard coming off of at LEAST a year of being completely sedentary. I hope my breathing comes around soon…I’m ready to do more than just jump around in my living room.
So. That being said. This weeks goals are a little different. My one and only goal is to work out every single day but sunday. Even if it’s just jog/walking around the neighborhood. My bathing suit came, it doesn’t look too bad, but I still feel like a whale. It’s slightly too big so we’ll see where that goes 😀
Motivational Reason #65: When I sit down, I don’t want my stomach roll to be larger than my boobs.